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10/04/2014
Ups, it seems as if one of my fic really stroke a cord with one of the readers. :) They (he/she, most likely the latter) left me a comment - two, even! - that sort of scolds me how on earth could Ron ever cheat on Harry. Oh, my Ron is no angel.
He's a cheating bastard in almost all my fics. Because, in reality, as much as I love the character - and I do, with and because of all his faults - I believe Ron probably would have been an easy prey to temptation (especially if it was based on near-worship by someone who always acted superior), because of his insecurities.
He married Hermione, someone he sees as superior in intellect and morals and whatnot (and who is not afraid to lecture him at every possible occasion) - and his best friend is a living legend. I think he'd still be starved to get a feeling of self-worth where ever he could find it - and who better than Draco Malfoy, someone who's known to want nothing but the best, someone who knows how to get to him, kick him where it hurts - and kiss him when he needs it most, at least in my imagination.:) If someone who's shown you nothing but contempt, suddenly bows to you - how would that makes you feel? In Ron's shoes? Ron's far from perfect, that's what makes him Ron. And he betrayed Harry's trust, abandoned him before, simply on the account of those insecurities. Twice.
The fic that got the comment - In the shadow of your love - is not about being fair to anyone, it's about sometimes not being able to make a decision solely upon what is the right thing - but on who you are as much as you'd like to fight it. In life - real people inevitably stray. In the same fic, Harry is cheating on Ginny - how's that right? And Ron is already cheating on another dear friend of his with Harry - his wife. When he's with Draco, initially, it doesn't even qualify as cheating because he doesn't attach feelings to his, erm, more carnal desires. He might as well be using Draco for all it's worth to him (though, admittedly, Harry would see it with different eyes). It's consensual, Draco clearly craves it and Ron puts no weight on it. Yet. This fic will get infinitely more complicated when he starts to. And he will, that much is already written, though the work is not finished yet. And Ron will not be the only one who changes, Harry will, too.
I'm sorry, but I can't - and I won't - write characters (even if I'm ruining someone's favourite ones) sterile and lifeless, when there's so much more to them than their qualities.
Admittedly, Ron is a bit of an asshole. That's what makes him my favourite character - he might as well step out of the book and into the real life, because he's so realistic, he's almost 3D. You can't claim that his loyalty to Harry is his redeeming quality, because it's not him who stood by his side the whole time, it's Hermione. As soon as Harry bumps into one of Ron's complexes too hard, Ron betrays his trust. He's vulnerable this way. And yet - it's Ron Harry wants in this fic, not Hermione or someone else, for that matter. Ron. Because he can't help it. You are shaped by life into a mixture of impulses and desires that sometimes have no logical explanation, no good healthy reasoning behind them. That doesn't make them any less real and any less worthy of pursuit, as unhealthy as that might turn out to be. With Harry at his side, one could say Ron has everything he ever wanted. And yet he's pulled to Draco, because of who he is, because he craves recognition, he can't help soaking up admiration and because Draco gives him one thing Harry can't: the feeling he's equal. No matter what their relationship is like, Ron was always going to be submissive to Harry, because that's just the way he loves and admires him. But perhaps, just perhaps, he wants to feel dominant or at least equal to someone - and I think that could be a big psychological drive behind his promiscuous behaviour. He's looking for confirmation - but get caught in something entirely different in the end. Feelings he didn't know were there.
Let's see where this fic takes us,it's not an easy one to write.:)
It's clear that whoever wrote the comment was slightly ticked off with me, but frankly, don't mind the feedback in whatever form it comes, it makes me re-consider and re-establish the reasoning behind my writing. :)
He's a cheating bastard in almost all my fics. Because, in reality, as much as I love the character - and I do, with and because of all his faults - I believe Ron probably would have been an easy prey to temptation (especially if it was based on near-worship by someone who always acted superior), because of his insecurities.
He married Hermione, someone he sees as superior in intellect and morals and whatnot (and who is not afraid to lecture him at every possible occasion) - and his best friend is a living legend. I think he'd still be starved to get a feeling of self-worth where ever he could find it - and who better than Draco Malfoy, someone who's known to want nothing but the best, someone who knows how to get to him, kick him where it hurts - and kiss him when he needs it most, at least in my imagination.:) If someone who's shown you nothing but contempt, suddenly bows to you - how would that makes you feel? In Ron's shoes? Ron's far from perfect, that's what makes him Ron. And he betrayed Harry's trust, abandoned him before, simply on the account of those insecurities. Twice.
The fic that got the comment - In the shadow of your love - is not about being fair to anyone, it's about sometimes not being able to make a decision solely upon what is the right thing - but on who you are as much as you'd like to fight it. In life - real people inevitably stray. In the same fic, Harry is cheating on Ginny - how's that right? And Ron is already cheating on another dear friend of his with Harry - his wife. When he's with Draco, initially, it doesn't even qualify as cheating because he doesn't attach feelings to his, erm, more carnal desires. He might as well be using Draco for all it's worth to him (though, admittedly, Harry would see it with different eyes). It's consensual, Draco clearly craves it and Ron puts no weight on it. Yet. This fic will get infinitely more complicated when he starts to. And he will, that much is already written, though the work is not finished yet. And Ron will not be the only one who changes, Harry will, too.
I'm sorry, but I can't - and I won't - write characters (even if I'm ruining someone's favourite ones) sterile and lifeless, when there's so much more to them than their qualities.
Admittedly, Ron is a bit of an asshole. That's what makes him my favourite character - he might as well step out of the book and into the real life, because he's so realistic, he's almost 3D. You can't claim that his loyalty to Harry is his redeeming quality, because it's not him who stood by his side the whole time, it's Hermione. As soon as Harry bumps into one of Ron's complexes too hard, Ron betrays his trust. He's vulnerable this way. And yet - it's Ron Harry wants in this fic, not Hermione or someone else, for that matter. Ron. Because he can't help it. You are shaped by life into a mixture of impulses and desires that sometimes have no logical explanation, no good healthy reasoning behind them. That doesn't make them any less real and any less worthy of pursuit, as unhealthy as that might turn out to be. With Harry at his side, one could say Ron has everything he ever wanted. And yet he's pulled to Draco, because of who he is, because he craves recognition, he can't help soaking up admiration and because Draco gives him one thing Harry can't: the feeling he's equal. No matter what their relationship is like, Ron was always going to be submissive to Harry, because that's just the way he loves and admires him. But perhaps, just perhaps, he wants to feel dominant or at least equal to someone - and I think that could be a big psychological drive behind his promiscuous behaviour. He's looking for confirmation - but get caught in something entirely different in the end. Feelings he didn't know were there.
Let's see where this fic takes us,it's not an easy one to write.:)
It's clear that whoever wrote the comment was slightly ticked off with me, but frankly, don't mind the feedback in whatever form it comes, it makes me re-consider and re-establish the reasoning behind my writing. :)
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